Anna: “I hope to be able to study without masks, without PC, in a real place”

Dear University,

I am writing to you while I am in front of the pc waiting for the start of the umpteenth online lesson and I think about my life, how much it has changed, especially in recent months, those post graduation. I graduated in law in full lockdown, only my parents were in the house, my mother was in bed, unfortunately her health conditions are precarious and that day she could not even move. But, seeing her smile after hearing that I was given a 110 out of 110 with honors was the highlight.

For once, I felt proud and proud of myself.

I started my internship away from home, where I have been living for about three years now. In the meantime, however, I felt within me the need to do something more, something that would make me fully satisfied. So, I went to study for the nursing admission test and passed it. I was hoping that this second university path would be different from the previous one. I hoped to be able to go back to the classroom, to meet new people with whom to study, compare myself, cry in moments of despair and smoke a cigarette when you can no longer listen to the lesson.

But no. You can’t, Covid has deprived us of everything. It has deprived us of the opportunity to live. My days have grueling rhythms. I divide my time between practicum and online lessons which, however useful they may be, will never be like face-to-face lessons. Yes, I want to do both. I absolutely do not want to abandon jurisprudence. I think having a plan B doesn’t hurt in life. It doesn’t matter if I miss lunch some days, if I have to give up an aperitif with friends or a dinner out with my boyfriend. It doesn’t matter if I’m not a 24-year-old like the others. If I don’t do everything the others do.

Those who love me and really care about me will understand, I think. I am this. I chose this second university path, because I hope it will give me the opportunity to help others. I hope you can give me the chance to alleviate their suffering. I hope, when I am here, not to see in anyone’s eyes the suffering I saw in my mother’s eyes. Well yes, helping others makes me really happy and I hope to be able to do it as soon as possible. But most of all, I hope to make my mother and my whole family proud of me someday.

Mostly, I hope to be able to do all this without masks, without pc, in a real workplace and not in my room. I miss the normality of the past. I miss getting on and off the buses, taking long runs to take a seat at the first counter. I miss friends, hugs and everything the university has to offer.

Anna

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