Cara Delevingne reveals: “It was not easy to accept my sexuality, I thought about suicide”

Cara delevingne today he defines himself with pride “pansexual“But there was a time when he couldn’t accept his sexuality:”I thought about suicideĀ», He revealed during an episode of the podcast Goop with Gwyneth Paltrow. The actress and supermodel explained that she grew up in an “old-fashioned family”: “It took me a while to understand what it meant to be gay. I didn’t know anyone who was gay. At the time, even if I didn’t realize it, I was homophobic. The idea of ​​having a partner of my same sex disgusted me.

I thought: “My God I would never do that, it’s disgustingĀ».

The inner struggle with her sexuality, says the supermodel and actress, had a strong impact on her mental health: “I was so ashamed that I fell into depression, I thought about suicide Ā». Today Cara proudly claims her fluid sexuality: “I will always remain pansexual, I think. There are times when I feel very feminine, other times when I feel more manHe explained in an interview last year. “It doesn’t matter how you define yourself, whether she, him or them: I fall in love with the person, I’m attracted to the person.” Yet even today, as he confessed to the Goop podcast, Ā«c‘it’s a part of me that every now and then says, “Oh, I wish I could be straight ā€. There is still that side. It is really complicatedĀ».

A couple of years ago Cara revealed that when she was very young she liked men: “I fell in love with my PE teacher when I was 5, then I continued and I have had several boyfriends“. Until she began to realize that she (also) liked women. In recent years he has had two important stories: with the singer St. Vincent, by his side for nearly two years until 2017, and with actress Ashley Benson (their relationship, which began in 2018, ended in May 2020).

Today Cara, at least officially, is single. But above all it is “fed up with people wanting to label me one way or another. Sometimes it happens that at dinner someone asks me: ā€œSo what are you? L, G, B, T, Q? ā€And I answer:ā€œ Guys, come on, really? I change every day! ā€Ā».

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