How Benjamin Simpson made the big decision to have sex and get a penis

Nothing about Benjamin Simpson’s sexual harassment was easy. Although he was eventually destined to become a man, he admits that if he had been born in the wrong place and time, he would certainly have grown up as an unhappy and trapped woman. A woman who, according to him, may have found a way out of suicide.

Benjamin Simpson grew up in a New York suburb where Internet access is still not easy. As a result, he did not even know the term “transsexualAnd what it means.

As a little girl, she had the feeling that when she grew up she would become a man. But when he realized that such a thing was not going to happen, he tried to collect those pieces of the puzzle that would give him the answer to why he always felt bad inside his body.

The school, as reported by nytimes.com it was another place that Benjamin felt bad. Rumors of sexual orientation and the term “lesbianThey began to sound loud. But Benjamin knew he liked girls but did not feel like a lesbian. To quell the gossip, Benjamin started dressing more feminine and tried to have sex with boys. But he realized that this was not what he was representing and certainly not what he wanted. That was not his identity.

His quest led him to New York University in 2009. There he began calling himself a “queer lesbian”, a term he used in an attempt to reconcile his attraction to women with his interest in men’s bodies. There he discovered the LGBT community and met people who knew who they were, while he also met “gender-fluid” people.

Benjamin felt for the first time that he belonged somewhere. Through long discussions, he learned all the terms that existed in the community and tried to figure out which one suited him best.

The “click” in Benjamin’s mind

In the spring of 2015, Benjamin going out with friends for a drink, something he used to do, became the “click” in his mind. The conversation erupted and Benjamin suddenly realized he was a man. Got up standing up and in a loud voice he shouted “I am trans! Need to go”. From that moment she started her procedures gender reassignmentfrom the woman who was in a man while in his immediate priority was the appointment with the doctor to start the administration of testosterone.

For two years, he lived as a man, and felt good every time someone approached him and spoke to him as a man.

In 2017 he underwent a double mastectomy which made him feel even better about himself and now he could manage the discomfort caused by his sex. He felt good, now with his sex life.

The “bottom surgery”

Benjamin had read about the operation… done… down on the internet but the end results did not satisfy him enough to dare. “They said it was not functional. You could not pee from them. You could not feel anything “were some of what he had read and remembered. But one night, in a bar, when he went to the men’s restrooms and sat down instead of standing up, looking at him, he changed his mind. The fear of how someone who will see him in the men’s restrooms while he did not have a penis reacted encouraged him to proceed with the operation.

He was only 26 years old and did not want to live in fear for the rest of his life. At that moment the disadvantages of the surgery suddenly seemed reasonable. To have penis would help him feel safe. “I felt that any complication that would arise, including death, was better,” he said.

That night, Benjamin spent time “surfing” and searching for information about phalloplasty, an operation that is not only easy as depending on the combination of procedures, it can take years to complete a penis that includes different surgical stages. . But the phalloplasty, apart from being a time consuming procedure, is also expensive and costs many thousands of euros. But now, in America, several companies are putting this process in their insurance plans, thus making it more accessible to trans people.

«I never had a penis again, but once I had it, everything seemed logicalBenjamin will say.