This article is published in Vanity Fair number 32-33 on newsstands until August 17, 2021
Life without crossroads is a straight road: however much the landscape around it can transform, in the seasons, and you go slow or accelerate, you will never experience the fear that anticipates a change of direction, the work of uncertainty, the adventure that there is. ‘is in every “who knows”, when the road branches off in front of you and a choice opens up, and your head tells you: “Go right”, and the body goes against it, and time shrinks, and you you wriggle, tormented, between two questions, which are also two opposing forces – “What will be right?” What’s wrong? ” The point is approaching and you are tired, a little confused, perhaps, but that’s where you have to stay clear.
The electrocardiogram of Alessia Marcuzzi it was stable. No rhythm alteration, no peaks on the track. He proceeded on his straight road. So much, almost 30 years of television. And successful. Since he was 17, Lightning strike, Festivalbar, Never say goals, Hyenas, Jokes aside, Big Brother, The Island of the Famous, Temptation Island. What is called “work”, yes, but also “privilege”, “luck”. Then comes February 2020, the pandemic, and she begins what she calls “a movement, profound”: “Who am I? Where am I going? What am I feeling? Something is not right for me. Brilliant, yes? Still? I am happy? Maybe yes, but I don’t even want to be out of habit… ». On 30 June 2021, at the dawn of this summer, with a post on Instagram he announced: “I am leaving Mediaset, after 25 years”.
This is the place where we cross with her what was in between, and we touch the point where abandonment and rebirth become two sides of the same coin, and the alphabet of rupture becomes that of correspondence. Start over.
How was it, deciding to leave?
«I was born on TV, I was not even 18 years old, because I did everything very early in life, since I was already reading Mickey Mouse at 3. This is to say that Mediaset I just ripped it from my heart. But when you no longer recognize yourself, and it has nothing to do with what you do and have always done, but you have to do it, it is mandatory to ask yourself: “What do you want to become?”. And answer each other. I said to myself: “Alessia, you are lucky, yes, and a lot, but are you really what you like? What do you want to be? “. And so I began to redesign myself. Thinking. I stopped: there was a need to understand ».
The social announcement was a bolt from the blue: how do you remember the moment of sending it?
«The moment of ‘I want to be the one to tell you, before the rumors reach you’. The moment in which you communicate is the one in which you have now overtaken, decided. You are at the point of no return that Jovanotti sings well: “Dizziness is not fear of falling but the desire to fly” ».
Was she afraid of it?
“Beyond. When you go on video and choose to leave it, a voice resounds within you: “You will disappear. People will forget about you ”. We have a short memory, I know, but one certainty I have today is that I don’t want, for fear, to be in a hurry to get back into something that doesn’t convince me. More will come. And will it have to do with entertainment? Maybe yes, it’s in my DNA ».
Do you feel you have had courage?
“Courage is a huge word. We learn, but no one teaches us. You learn from us. It’s time for “Yes, I want to jump”. Whatever is on the other side. And who can do it must do it. But in my case I would speak more of madness ».
How would you define madness?
“Jump with your eyes open. A leap upward, but light. Behind us something we have been, and for a long time, in front of us who will live will see. Madness is feeling a bit of a call, an urgency for freedom. And follow it “
When you succeed, what does it feel like?
«Don’t be afraid anymore. Of their own frailties, of making mistakes, of the judgment of others. It means finally saying that “no, thank you” that we had never said before, because we want it strong. And that “why not?” if something suddenly inspires us. Try to grasp life from its way, the most surprising ».
It passes for an instinctive. Was it also on this occasion?
«Because I listen to my belly, I have often been given the anti-conventional, the“ outside the box ”that makes hasty decisions. Because although I seem like the good bourgeois girl next door always smiling and accommodating, I am anything but reassuring. I had two children, Tommaso and Mia, by two different men (the former footballer now coach of Inter, Simone Inzaghi, and the entrepreneur of the show Francesco Facchinetti, ed), I left early with both, when the children were little ones, I was the protagonist of calendars and sexy photos when nobody was doing them yet ».
Is transgressire a verb?
«My parents were 20 years old when they had me, they could have become my friends but they were rigid, traditional, with many rules, but also with an open mind, great crazy travelers, with rucksacks, never judgmental. For father a curious man, great reader, almost military approach, I had to finish my homework before I could watch documentaries on TV, no disco in the afternoon. For a mother a woman also for her studies with a strong educational vocation, governed by a lightness that has never been superficial. The same one running through my veins. My choices seem apparently hasty, but they are always dictated by love, instinct, passion. And from the pursuit of awareness. There is great solidity where others see a lack of it ».
Is this a choice also due to the pandemic?
«In the privilege of being personally tested, but safe, the lockdown was for me the opportunity to see myself from the outside. I was there, as if sitting on a rocking chair, inside a kind of castle, around the moat with the water, a raised drawbridge to overcome to get out and free myself. Trapped in something “too much” to abandon ».
Each of us has better focused our priorities. What are yours?
“Don’t be a habit anymore. Discover new stories about yourself. Looking at life with the curiosity with which one falls into a love at the beginning. When you feel it is dead, do not persevere ».
Has it ever lost its light?
«They always told me when I arrived in the studio:“ Alessia, you come in and bring light, you are light ”. Here, in the last few months I am afraid I have really lost that little light inside that each of us carries. It was, as it were, faded, extinguished. I went on the air, I smiled, but I no longer felt my energy, and I didn’t know where and how to find it. My companies made me happy (one of bags, Marks & Angels, one of creams, Luce Beauty, ed). Pull up with my strength ».
Is career a word you like?
“Absolutely not. I feel like elbowing. And since I was a child I transformed every stool into a stage and invented musicals and plays, and imitations – like Ornella Vanoni interviewed by Maurizio Costanzo -, I have always known how to stay in my ambition, so much so that with my colleagues I have always loved and agreed, from Maria De Filippi to Mara Venier ».
Did you find an origin for your crisis?
“Let’s change. That’s all. Even with my husband (the managing director and founder of BUDDY Film Paolo Calabresi Marconi, ed) I suffered it, because everyday life is tight inside the unpredictability, and I who am no different from the others from the missing tomboy head of the family which I am and together it hens, I always want to have everything under control, and in the end you break out ».
What effect does the rising age have?
«The children grow up, and you” grow up “- these are the rules of the game – and you want to do it well, without being afraid. Inside you feel like a girl, but there are no excuses: you are now an adult, and you have to deal with it. Approaching the age of 50, however, is not how often we want to tell the end of all forms of beauty and productivity, on the contrary it is yet another period of life: you know yourself, you have learned what you want and what you no longer want. Every morning you fall in love with yourself in a new way, before anyone else ».
Is makeup an ally?
“On the street, turning to look at women of a certain age, I realized that I liked those who didn’t, because from a certain point onwards the make-up is no longer, your ally, it gets old. My Linus cover is red lipstick. I never miss the stock market ».
How is it with your children?
“They are our true tyrants forever, for better or for worse. But they live with me, taking me as I am, in the 5 stars and in the campsites, transgressive and modest. I would like them to keep the amazement of a beautiful gift they wanted, but I realize that having a lot is difficult. I am not tired of my children and I am not friends. Tommaso will never see me drunk at a party, and to Mia I say: “Don’t be like me because I didn’t wear miniskirts for a long time because my legs felt crooked. You are unique, and that uniqueness is not a defect, exalt it, put it on display, that uniqueness will give you a note more than the others “”.
Against commonplaces.
“Like the one that with age you no longer have a role, that the interlude is wrong, that as long as you are biologically productive you are worth and then no longer. Here too: why is it a discourse with men that is not done? ».
How do you see the men you deal with?
«They are heavy like us, they have obsessions like us, they have now become more self-centered than us, more obsessed with beauty than we are. Except that no one says it ».
She told of going to analysis. Keep it going?
“Mine was, is, joyful. With a wonderful lady. I started it at the suggestion of a friend. When I didn’t believe it at all. He taught me that positioning is fundamental, if you do it then they will settle around starting from where you are. And that getting off the rocking chair, getting out of the castle, pulling down the drawbridge, crossing the moat, it could be done, that stopping is not disappearing, but taking time to come back, maybe, but not immediately. And in the meantime doing things you like. As such, they are revolutionary ».
Do you like solitude?
“Especially the one with the children that I’m growing up.”
What is freedom, as you have known it?
«To be able to choose. Economic independence. Don’t be afraid anymore. Of people’s judgments, of making mistakes. Run the risk. Correct it, in courage ».
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