I have decided to follow my son. There is no reason to live without him. Everything I touch I ruin it. ‘ Words posted on Twitter by Sinead O’Connor they had alarmed all his fans, convinced that he wanted to take his own life. Just like his son Nevi’im Nesta Ali Shane O’Connor, who committed suicide last week at the age of 17. An hour later, the singer, again via social media, reassured everyone: «Sorry, I shouldn’t have said that. I’m with the police headed to the hospital. I am lost without my son and I hate myself. The hospital will help me for a while. ‘
The artist’s son, born from the relationship with the musician Donal Lunny, era mysteriously disappeared from the city of Tallaght, in the eastern part ofIreland, on January 6. Pushing Sinéad to throw a appeal on Twitter to find him: «Shane, your life is precious. God didn’t carve that pretty smile on your pretty face for nothing. My world would collapse without you. You’re my Heart. Please don’t stop him from beating. Please don’t hurt yourself. Go to the Gardai and we’ll take you to the hospital “, wrote the singer who, already in January 2019, had faced a voluntary removal by Shane, hospitalized for suicidal tendencies.
On January 8, Sinéad, which was married four times and has three other children, had given the world the tragic news of Shane’s death in poignant words: “My beautiful son, Nevi’im Nesta Ali Shane O’Connor, true light of my life, he decided to put an end to his earthly struggle and is now with God. May he rest in peace and no one follow his example. My baby. I love you so much. Rest in peace, please ».
She, of course, cannot find peace. Her son’s death destroyed her, causing i to resurface in her mind suicidal thoughts he spoke about in public years ago. The fifty-five-year-old artist, who in 2018 he is converted to Islam and since then he calls himself Shuhada, he has an existence behind him that he went through hard years, drugs, depressions, bipolarisms, suicidal manias, disappearances, public pains. Her desperate calls for help online are countless: “I overdosed. There is no other way to get respect. I’m not at home, I’m in a hotel somewhere in Ireland, under another name. You finally got rid of me “, he wrote in 2014. Then in 2017 a similar message, again via social media:”I am alone, everyone is treating me badly and I am sick. Mental illnesses are like drugs “. Now she’s back for help online, and she’s been hospitalized. Where they will help you, “for a while.”