The Stories We Are, Giulia: “So I stopped being my eating disorder”

Giulia is 26 years old and until high school she had never heard of binge eating. Eating disorder. Then, he saw his body change and gain weight by weight, up to over 100 kg. “I had no self-esteem, I ate out of anger, I wanted to disappear”, she says today that she is well and thanks to her willpower and the support of professionals who have followed her step by step she has defeated the binge eating disorder of which he suffered.

Before, food was a place to hide in. “It was something that was unable to judge my person, my relationship with the outside world and above all the blows of life. It comforted me. So for years I have enclosed anger and frustration inside me, always dressing in black and eating continuously, unable to externalize the fact that I wanted to disappear from circulation. For myself I was just a disappointment and I didn’t realize that in addition to obesity, I was experiencing something bigger than myself: binge eating. Only after years did I know what it was, realizing I could defeat it ».

Eating disorders such as anorexia, bulimia and binge eating are estimated to affect approx 3 million teenagers in our country. According to a research carried out by the Ministry of Health, from January 2019 to January 2021, new requests for taking charge increased by an average of 30 percent. «I didn’t want to have social relations, I was always at home to study and eat, punishing myself punctually for all the food I was able to eat every day without realizing it. I ate and I punished myself, ”says Giorgia who took several years to start feeling well. To feel serene.

“After a severe depression, in the summer of 2015 I decided to stop crying: I wanted to have courage in my life, smile and be satisfied with the person I wanted to be. I felt trapped in pieces that didn’t belong to me. So I chose to lose weight. But not for the world, I wanted to do it for me“. Giulia started playing sports, eating fruit and vegetables, and turned to a professional.

«I was determined to get better and thanks also to the support of my family I succeeded. It was a gesture full of love, respect and hope. The first kg were easy to lose but then the first cries and the first defeats took over. The eating disorder showed no sign of going away. I always saw myself fat and weighed myself even 10 times a day. I was losing weight but I was sick. This is because the eating disorder is not only related to food, but there are many other factors that determine it: deficiencies, voids, disappointments, which food is unable to fill ».

To get up, Giulia needed small daily steps. “I realized I had to concentrate on the simpler things to get back from that well that I had built myself. Gradually I turned all that pain into strength. I felt I had so much to say and to give ».

Today Giulia tells about her journey on Instagram, to support people who are struggling with an eating disorder. So that they don’t feel alone as it happened to her. «The Giulia of the past has split in two: one has saved the other. I no longer live to eat, but above all I firmly believe that food is conviviality and that it creates relationships. It is not intended as an enemy. I would like my words to be of help to those who are suffering from eating disorders, because there is a solution ». Ask for help, contacting specialized doctors is the first step.

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