Tori Spelling reveals the secret reasons that led to her divorce from Dean McDermott, after 5 children

He told the face of a generation, accompanied his peers through the turbulent journey of parenthood and now Tori Spelling he is on the eve of a new chapter in his life. After her divorce from Dean McDermottthe Beverly Hills, 90210 star has decided to launch the podcast misSPELLING and he did it with panache, anticipating some intimate declarations.

So far he has maintained total secrecy to protect his 5 children Liam Aaron (17), Stella Doreen (15), Hattie Margaret (12), Finn Davey (11) and Beau Dean (7). Now, however, she feels free – as the naked cover of the podcast shows – of tell your truth by asking for custody of your children.

“I felt alone – she revealed – and incapable of being loved.” And, as if that wasn't enough, the actress added that she would have liked to ask for a divorce from her 15 years before her, but she didn't feel like it to protect both her ex-husband and her children.

What went wrong? In the opinion of the two, a bit of everything. When the honeymoon period ended and they both immediately cheated on each other (she with Charlie Shanian and he with Mary Jo Eustace), the first real problems began.

In part, the actress hated Donna Martin's (her character in Beverly Hills, 90210) image as a good girl and partly the relationship with Dean McDermott burned passionately too quickly. There has always been complicity between the two, indeed a hot chemistry (according to her statements) because he knew how to bring out her bad girl spirit in his wife.

The imbalance between the two also concerned the notoriety of Tori Spelling, daughter of the communications magnate Aaron: «I was born among newspapers and I knew how to manage the press, but I don't think he had any idea how invasive it would be and what direction it would take. the situation. I thought I had taken care of it, but no.”

The two tried several times to save the relationship, starting, for example, couples therapy and continuing it for years, but without ever managing to resolve the issues in the relationship. “It seemed – she says – that we spoke two different languages.”

Unfortunately, alcohol amplified the situation: if she had two drinks, he would have five or six. So the result was that she got dizzy while he was high. Once again, in short, on two different frequencies.

Press aside, the couple's relationship, as Tori Spelling tells it, seems like a rite of passage with which many parents end up identifying. She starts off thinking that romance and passion survive diapers and bottles, but that's not exactly the case. And an army of nannies is not enough to recreate the magic of the beginning. «At a certain point – says the actress – I created the character of Dean as if we were in a fairy tale and he embodied the Prince Charming I have always dreamed of». And, the icing on the cake of an assured disaster, Tori concludes: “I'm very good at taking the blame for everything that happens.”